Chi-KAA-go or Chi-KAW-go?

I had a dream last night.

I was walking along the lake with my brother when I spotted a $120 bill on the ground.  (Yeah..not a $100 bill, but a $120 bill).  I got really excited, and I picked it up.  But I thought keeping it would be a wrong thing to do, so I walked over to a police officer, who happened to be standing nearby, and gave him the money.  (This is what I was taught to do in elementary school).  After I gave away the money, my brother said, "Let's go buy a lottery ticket! Today is a lucky day for you!"  So, we went to a store, and when we were about to buy the lottery, the police officer came in and said, "Since you are such an honest, selfless girl, I think you deserve the money."  So he handed me back $100.  (I don't know what happened to the $120 bill).  My brother and I came back home talking about how we should have good morals, never be greedy, and that people get rewarded for their good deeds.

When I woke up, I checked my horoscope for the day.  Yeah, I know I shouldn't believe that stuff, but I read it for fun anyway.  And my horoscope said, I'm not kidding: "Go buy a lottery ticket."  It went on and on about how I have so much luck in earning money.  So, did I go out and buy it?  Nope.  I went to school, went to a bible study, came home, and now I'm just sitting here wondering...what if......

23+1

Another year has gone by, and now I'm 24.  I won't be able to get used to saying that for a long time.  Ten years ago, being in mid-20's seemed so far away.  Back then, I imagined by the time I turn 24, I would be close to getting married, have a successful job, look beautiful, and be very satisfied with my life.  Oh how wrong was I...

Anyway, I thank everyone who sent me birthday wishes, spent time with me, and made me feel very special and loved.  Even a simple "Happy birthday" meant a lot to me, so I really appreciate all your kind words.

I had lunch with my parents and grandmother yesterday.  I had the most awkward conversation with my dad.  My dad never talked about dating to me before, but these days, that's ALL he talks about.  About 6 months ago, I mentioned something very small about one guy to my mom  (and of course the words travelled to my dad), and now I regret it. 

"기원아, 점점 시간이 없어진다...졸업하기 전에 빨리 찾아야지. 그 사람이랑은 연락 자주 하니? 왜 안해? 아빠가 생각하기에는 괜찮은 남자같다...안봐도 알어. 너가 먼저 전화해봐라..뭐가 어때서? 열쇠는 너가 쥐고 있는 거야....아빠는 널 믿어...넌 왜 이렇게 적극성이 없어? 좀 잘해봐! 아빠가 너보고 결혼을 빨리 하라는게 아니라 그냥 남자친구만 사귀라는 거야..."

("Kiwon, time's running out...You have to find someone before you graduate.  Do you keep in touch with that guy?  Why not?  I think he's a good person...I just know.  You should call him first...what's wrong with that?  The key is in your hands...I believe in you...Why can't you be more forward? Try hard! I'm not telling you to get married soon.  I want you to just date...")

It was endless.  I understand his worries and concerns because I know I'm getting old.  I admit it.  But what frustrates me is that my dad talks about dating as if it's the easiest thing to do in the world. 

Whatever.  I don't want a boyfriend now.

P.S. HaSuYo...You are the best! I love you all so much.

너는 내 운명

Today, I was thinking about a Korean documentary program I watched long time ago.

This particular episode's theme was love. 

There was a young couple in their late 20's and 30's who had been dating for 2 years.  Despite many objections from their families and friends, (they had a big age gap, and the guy was very poor and had less education than the girl) they stayed together and made a promise to get married.  They were so happy to be with each other.  But their happiness came to an end when the girl was diagnosed with terminal liver cancer with 3 months to live.  This sounds like a plot from a sad Korean drama, but it was their reality.  Because there was no hope for the girl to live, her father kept telling the guy to leave her and start fresh, find a new girl, and move on.  But he stayed by her side in the hospital, took care of her everyday, and finally proposed to her.  So, the couple started making wedding plans and bought a wedding dress, while her body kept getting worse day by day.  The guy knew better than anyone else how sick his fiancee was, so I can't imagine how painful it must've been for him.  The girl wanted to be remembered looking beautiful and happy for him, so she was so excited about their wedding.  Sadly, the girl died few days before their wedding day.  After her death, the guy built a house just like the one she had always described to him as her dream home, and he lives there alone now.

I remember how much I cried watching this program.  I was so touched and amazed by their love.

What would you do if you were in that guy's situation? Marry her or leave her?
What if you were in that girl's situation?

Haircut

I don't know why I'm sharing this...

I cut my own hair yesterday.  I just felt like chopping it off.  It didn't turn out exactly the way I wanted, but I think it's alright...no? =P

I love wasting my time.